So... a lot has happened lately in life!

I guess the biggest news is that.... my best friend Allyson has gotten engaged!!! I found this out on Tuesday, and also I GET TO BE A BRIDESMAID!!!!!

I could not be more excited. As long as my friends are happy, I am happy. And I could not feel more blessed to be asked to be a part of her wedding party. Ally and I have been through so much in our friendship, it seems. From our parents hanging out when we were babies, to being classmates in high school, not really knowing each other, to becoming aquaintences, to becoming people who pretty much hang out every day, to being room mates, to going through a rough patch (which we didn't think we'd make it through), back to being best friends. I can't even COUNT how many stories we have together. I can't even explain how blessed I feel to have a friend like her in my life. In so many ways, I see her like a sister. She watches out for me. A LOT. Gives me honest advice, and even though sometimes it may not come accross that way, she always has my best interest at heart. I can't wait to start planning and being involved in all the fun wedding planning.

I love you, Ally!

In other recent happenings, I've found it really hard lately to trust people. (Mainly guys). I've gone on a few dates recently, and to be honest, I have to say that dating people is the hardest thing ever. Because, if you really like the person, and the feelings don't seem to be reciprocated, its a crushing blow (even if you did just meet). Sometimes, I wish I knew what God's plans were for me when it came to marriage. I guess what I am going to need to do is focus more on myself, and my relationship with family, friends and most importantly, Jesus. I think if I get all those ducks in a row, things will start to fall in place for me. I just feel so anxious because I just want to be loved. Everytime I've prayed and asked God for a friend, He has provided for me. I guess maybe thats STILL what I should be praying for. Relationships should start off as friendships. Maybe the way I view this is all wrong. I guess just hoping maybe I can find a strong man, who is trustworthy, faithful, and funny. Those are the things I need to pray for.

I am really looking forward to going to church this sunday. I pray I can find a church to call my own, and help my life get a little more on track.