i will become the best!

so.. this week has not exactly been off to the best start. I've had alittle trouble at my place of work. Something that was definitely my fault, but still, i sure did get a scare and a half today and it left me realizing how important things like my job are to me, and how much i've gotten away with, which, in retrospect, i probably shouldn't have.

But this is my time. I know I am going to rock it. Why do I always let things get to the very worst before I fix them? I do not know. It's something I for sure need to fix with myself, but I know I can do it. It's gonna probably be super hard, and take SO much discipline, but don't fear. I can do it. I am so sad that I needed this type of thing to happen to me, but It's nothing i can change now. All I can do is improve. And i WILL improve. Even if it seems near impossible. I will do it. God is on my side, and I know my friends and family are too. This job was like one of the best things that happened, and I CANNOT let something bad happen

I know  no one's really going to read this, but It feels good to write about it. Let everyone know I am motivated. let MYSELF know I am motivated.
All I can do is thank God that i've been given these chances, even though I don't deserve it. If this isn't mercy, I don't know what is.

"Where mercy is shown, mercy is given..."