ugh.

why does life have to feel like this sometimes?

i've sort of come to t his point where i don't know what to do. i feel like i need to get my stuff together. in a serious way. it seems like im always running in circles. nothing in life ever gets resolved because im afraid to lose friends or im afraid of a major change in my life. cuz man, i hate change. i want things to stay comfortable. even though sometimes comfortable sucks. its easier to stay in "suck" if its comfortable then to move out into change even if its change for the better. why is that? maybe im the only one who feels that. i don't think i have a bad life at all, but i know things could be better for me. i wouldn't say im sad, and i wouldnt say im happy. i'd honestly say that im just not sure...