see?

I am still alive! 

And blogging.

Sort of.

Today was hot. So hot that literally I was sweating sitting in my living room, doing nothing. I escaped the humid heat by going to the superstore to shop for groceries. I bought a watermelon! Which I am excited to eat, although it really makes me wish that I had some roll kuchen.

This long weekend has been humid. Its like, we ask for heat all winter, and then when it gets here, I wish for fall, or for cooler weather. Like, why can't it be about 25 degrees with no humidex? That would make me excited. And then it cools off in the evenings with no storm warnings. I do not like tornado warnings. 

This picture makes me miss my boat birthday. It also reminds me of how my little susie is getting married so soon. I am excited. I bet her bachelorette party will be very much fun. I am going to bring my camera to that, because I noticed lately I don't take a lot of pictures. Like literally, that first picture I posted in this entry was the first picture I have taken since pretty much Christmas. Sad hey? Makes me miss my old life, pre-constant working.

One more thing: I miss Daniel.

Random thoughts today...

Things I've realized...

Today I realized the following things:

1. I am a terrible blogger. I always forget about my stupid blogs! Which is weird, because I actually like doing it. In case anyone still checks it, I'm here!

2. I haven't taken pictures of me and my friends together in forever. In fact, I can't remember the last time my camera was charged. I should get on this.

3. I'm realizing I miss my Winkler friends and family more than I thought.

Those are the things I realize tonight.
I wish I could re-blog about the few exciting things that have happened to me since my last blog, but I guess that means I just have to improve my skills!
Hope to see you tomorrow, its too late now...

I'm still here!

Its been a while since I've posted. Honestly, its hard for me to keep a blog for some reason because I feel like I've got no time to update it.
Things have honestly been a little hectic here lately. I found out my roommate is moving out, so its been a slight scramble for me to figure out exactly what my next step is. Should I stay in this house, or should I find my own place to live? I guess the budget comes into play majorly here.  Anyways, I wouldn't say its hectic in a bad way, just hectic in a busy way. I definitely feel like this is my next step in life. I definitely believe this is the step that God wants me to take next. I'm putting it in His hands that whatever his will is, will happen in my life.

Also, drinking as many roll up the rim coffees in hopes of winning the 10,000 dollars is my slight back up plan as well. :p. hahah.

ugh.

why does life have to feel like this sometimes?

i've sort of come to t his point where i don't know what to do. i feel like i need to get my stuff together. in a serious way. it seems like im always running in circles. nothing in life ever gets resolved because im afraid to lose friends or im afraid of a major change in my life. cuz man, i hate change. i want things to stay comfortable. even though sometimes comfortable sucks. its easier to stay in "suck" if its comfortable then to move out into change even if its change for the better. why is that? maybe im the only one who feels that. i don't think i have a bad life at all, but i know things could be better for me. i wouldn't say im sad, and i wouldnt say im happy. i'd honestly say that im just not sure...

Dream Item

You know how there is always that 1 item that you dream about owning and are subconsciously saving up for? I know everyone has one thing that they want really bad, but just either can't afford, or somehow can't justify paying that amount for that particular thing. The current dream item and I wish I owned is this.

Count Shop

This is the Nixon Chalet watch in Hyperpop (In case someone wants to surprise me with it)

It actually looks way more fun and colorful when you see it in real life.

I am going to make it my "next big purchase" because I love it (and its actually more expensive in Canada)

picture of the day.

I can't believe I used to look like this!

Man I used to be a babe! I think im going to start losing weight and maybe go back to blonde? I dunno, i miss it! at times, i really did believe the phrase "blondes have more fun..."

Also makes me miss those good old myspace days. :P

Brainstorming.

I am trying to brainstorm ways right now to always stay in a positive mood at work. I work in an office where both of the women kind of make me feel crabby sometimes. One of them is always yelling and kind of inapproachable, and the other one is sometimes overbearing. Like she'll help, but if I ask too many questions, I can sense her getting annoyed and acting like "come on, you should get this already", which results in her figuring out the problem without me and not teaching me really what she did. But she's quick to point out what I do wrong. If I make mistakes and stuff. It makes it hard for me sometimes. I feel scared to ask because i KNOW how my questions will be answered.


So... Instead, i've decided that I'm going to throw people for a loop and always be in a good mood, no matter what. I just need ideas on how to do that when the going gets rough. So far,  i've come up with:


1. Funny potential desktop backgrounds

2. Getting hopped up on candy and being on a constant sugar rush

3. Getting wireless headphones and listen to music that makes me happy

(yeah, because I have $500 to spend on these bad boys)

4. Secretly submit my co-workers e-mail addresses to some sites with ACTUAL funny jokes of the day. Who know, could work..

5. Take a week off and go far away. Somewhere warm and far. (At least it'll be a temporary happiness!)

6. Secretly bake everyone cookies so they know someone cares about them. (could get costly though, if I had to do it every day!)

7. Just Pray.

I can do all of the above, but I have a feeling I will just keep coming back to the last one. Since its probably the only proven way that i'll be truly happy and always have a good attitude

say hello to my little friend.

This is my gnome! I've wanted a gnome forever! if you know anything about me, its kind of like the weird thing I always wanted. ANYWAYS, carl found this in a parking lot somewhere and GAVE IT TO ME! just wanted to show you his 'before' look, because I plan on painting him to look fresh and new. Stay tuned!

Also, he needs a name, I am undecided.

summer loving.

I can't believe summer is just a few months away. It still kind of seems like a lifetime, but working in retail, I notice people already putting out easter stuff and it makes me excited for warmer weather and dress season!


I want all of these dresses:

Possibly going to a nice party or summer wedding? Purple is the best!

I imagine having a picnic in summer with this dress on. Or wearing it to the beach..

(Maybe a little more for Spring or Fall, but still. i LOVE this!)

(This would be like, my DREAM dress to own this summer. Too bad its sold out on the website. Here's to hoping they get more in stock!)

Dresses available at Mod Cloth. Coolest dress store online.

Anyways, I guess i'm just daydreaming about better weather. Beaches, sunshine, watching the stars, having bonfires, barbeques... I miss it.

It's funny how easy it is to get sick of each season...

starting over.

seems like I'm always starting new blogs. This one I'm going to keep on top of. Because I kind of like the name I chose for it and it just seems like having a blog is a good thing sometimes. Good place to let things out, share ideas, keep people informed on your life and stuff. (like.. far away people). yeah.. so here I go again. Come sail away with me...

Oh, by the way, this is the theme of my blog. Sailing. Life is an adventure. A journey. And this one is mine..